I Think I'm in Love

I have been in a number of relationships but my most recent relationship was the only one that had the true potential to blossom into true and unconditional love. I’m hesitant so say that I was ever in love with my ex though because the relationship ended as soon as it began and today my ex and I act like complete strangers so for those two reasons it kind of embarrasses me to say that I was ever in love with my ex. Having been through this relationship that perished ever so quickly I try to look back at this failure with no regrets and view it only as an opportunity to grow.

In the beginning of our relationship, my ex (whose name I’m choosing to keep anonymous because I don’t feel that they deserve to be named for a number of reasons) was in my eyes the best thing in the world. Every time my phone flashed with my ex’s name I would feel like I had won the lottery, every time we touched I would get intense butterflies, and never did we have a boring conversation. For once in my life I felt like I was actually worth something, like someone truly did care about me. I could be myself around my ex and not have to fear that I’d be judged. Of course there were a few bumps on the road but nothing that would phase my feelings for my ex.

Unfortunately that very same person that can nourish your heart can also destroy it. As soon as the relationship ended my ex made a complete one-eighty. Our daily conversations stopped and every time I had tried to initiate a conversation I felt like I was being pushed away. In a way I felt betrayed because my ex had been so far removed from all that we went through. I took a risk at the game of love and lost. I still get sad from time to time when I think of all the happy moments my ex and I shared but I’ve accepted the fact that it didn’t work out and that unfortunately people change. If love can feel so great when it’s with the wrong person I can only imagine how great it will feel when I finally fall in love with the right person.